red shoes, red skillet

So it’d October 24th and I have basically a week until the the EA deadline for Emerson is here. So I better get my act together and answer those friggin’ short answers if I want to go to Emerson. I actually struggle with that a lot, which is my number one choice? I don’t have a clear first choice because while Emerson is a communications-centric school, it’s in Boston. I know I’ll miss my mom’s food the most, and I’ll miss my room and my family. I’m gonna be honest here and say that I’m scared for my room if I leave. My mom’ll have it open because the laundry line is outside my room, and if it’s always open then my cousins might go in when they come over and I hate anybody in my room without me with them. And I know my cousins like my pretty earrings and little things all around…

Okay so I just went on a huge tangent. But yeah, Emerson’s so far away from here. I honestly think Syracuse is my first choice because at least it’s still in New York, and has other majors if I choose not to pursue advertising. I can still do so many things, I can earn a degree in something and go on to do voice acting because that’s what I really really love.

I love expressing myself through my voice. I’m not great at singing but when I read aloud in class, the class usually listens, or in stitches because my newswoman voice is hilarious. Seriously.

It’s 9:52 and I still haven’t really started my homework. I’m supposed to memorize my duo piece for Forensics, too. We’re definitely competing on Saturday and if I want to do well, I’d better get my act together and memorize. And buy my goddamn suit. I talked with Annie and we’re going Friday after our school meetings, and maybe we’ll have Korean for dinner.

I really like Korean food, but I don’t think I can eat it constantly because every time I have it I have so much of it I won’t crave it for another month. There’s a Korean restaurant near my workplace, but it’s not truly authentic–but then again I’ve only had the take-out lunch boxes from there, so maybe I’m wrong. I actually don’t want any right now but when Friday rolls around I probably will…and if we go to Daedong MyunOk I hope I don’t get the galbi thang again, I never finish.

9:56. I should really do my math homework. I don’t understand why I take so long to do my homework, I like doing my math homework. Speaking of homework and math, I got my report card today and I did pretty well. Newman failed me. FAILED ME. And it’s a Major class, you’re not supposed to fail any of your major’s classes. He gave me a 60 and while I did fail the (one and only) test he gave us, I know my stuff. I know our Constitution pretty well, for crying out loud. And he also put in “lack of class participation.” What?! Every time I’ve raised my hand and suggested a definition for something (which is the only oppurtunity we had to speak when learning the Constitution, anyway), he shot me down. Geez. But at least I passed math. Just barely, but I did. I really need to bring up my test scores, I hate how I understand the classwork and homework and then BAM a test slaps me in the face.

10:00 Okay seriously I’m doing my homework, memorizing some more, and sleeping. I’m having appetite problems at school, but I’ll talk about that tomorrow.